The Lost Language of Trains
who almost understand it, wake some nights
to flooded turntables and torn-up sidings
in birch-woods doomed to redevelopment.
reflecting the paintings of Paul Delvaux,
in black trains stealing at dusk through abandoned stations
where the lately departed drink to the night, to the night.
an eye on the signals, an ear for the marshalling-yards
where trains are rehearsing vast chords of farewell?
and silence follows where language has gone.
Have they listened too long? Does it matter?
to kill the suitors, hang the housemaids,
dig the faithful dog a hole (I didn’t want to wake you)
To each their own fidelity:
Mine is to ocean, yours to remember.
I am required at the far end of the world. So then
waiting in the fields of amaranth at last,
supposing nothing vital intervenes.
A good day was two hours of light
with the white sun rising to take its farewell.
Afterwards nothing but darkness, time,
and guilt to be apportioned. Thus it was
the flower of exsanguinated maidenhood
went to their graves in a garden so vast
it touched the Arctic Circle. It was cruel.
It was boring, as epics and eternities
are boring. But it worked. Believe me, it requires
the opposite of faith to die, almost, forever.
When I was done once more, I’d lie in state, ,
the wicked king of a forgotten country,
on that granite slab, my freezing sword to hand.
The waiting nearly killed me, but I’m here.
Remind me, though: what was the question?
