I Dance
hoping you’ll tell me something new
I dance the dance of losers and the lost
knowing my steps will be in vain
I dance the dance of the happy naïve
believing my sweat is of use to someone
I dance the dance of profiteers
and I’ll dance as long as you pay me
And I dance, dance, dance
to overcome my arrogance
I dance, dance, dance
the why has no importance
I dance the dance of the damned
because the spleen reaches up to my chest
I dance the dance of the conceited
because you are too if you think you’re on my level
I dance the dance of the unwanted
I’ve trained a lot before closed doors
I dance the dance of the intolerant
can you move over a little, please?
And I dance, dance, dance
as long as I remain standing
I dance, dance, dance
because it’s you who’s asking.
I am the Garibaldian who arrived too late at the rock of Quarto
I am the Messiah of a religion in which no one believes
I am the excluded, the outsider, the damned who won’t surrender
I am the protagonist who dies on the first page
I am the stray one-eyed cat no old lady wants to pet
I am the rabid beast that bites the hand stretched out in pity
I am the excluded, the outsider, the ageless damned one
I am the rogue wave stealing towels and smartphones
I am the misunderstanding making couples fight
I am the devil dodging Luther’s inkwell
I am the film that snaps before the final scene
I am the excluded, the outsider, a nail in the brain
I am the pinball that’s swallowed one point shy of the record
I am the own goal at the last second
I am the kid making faces at his mother’s slaps
I am the fear of the grass about to be cut
I am the excluded, the outsider, this page torn out.
Me, dirty with blood and mucus
You, exhausted and curious.
I tried to tell you I wasn't sure
I wanted to stay outside of you
but the words I had in my head
in my mouth they mixed badly.
I had just learned that whole life
it would have been hypocrisy and paradox:
I just made you suffer
I made you bleed
but it was me who cried and you who smiled
I saw your face in that room
as they carried me away
There was too much confusion
to tell you how happy I was
to finally give a face
to the belly that had hosted me
And later with my colleagues
we discussed reincarnation,
the eternal return, Vico’s cycles
but I couldn’t wait to see you again
and to meet your man and your son
whose muffled and distant voices I could hear.
I saw your face in that room
and I would give everything I have to remember it.
